This is My Journey...

Sunday, August 07, 2005

*want to share excerpts from the homily today*

Every Sunday I go to church in Bangkok. I usually attend the 11 am mass where a Filipino choir sings. I always get a nice feeling after the mass. It was not boring because of the choir. But I will not talk about the choir, I'll tell you excerpts bout the homily.

The officiating priests was a Thai. But he speaks good english since he had been abroad too.

What I can remember from his homily is that we as Christians should make the sign of the cross with conviction... as if it's coming from our heart. To practice it, we should at least make it a habit to do it after we woke up and before we close our eyes at night.

Another thing he said was that "God's business is us... human beings. Our business is not only God." But we are here to give HIM thanks because there is NO reason not to give HIM thanks. True isn't it?

Also, the priest told us about the boy he met before the mass start. It was the boy's birthday. And he asked for a gift from the Thai priest. He gave him 1 baht and said he can multiply it just like Jesus did in the loaves of bread. The important thing he said was "We can't give what we don't have." Right again!

All in all it's a good mass again. I felt cleanse... again.

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Hmmm... after that Bangkok solo vacation, It really felt light. Still have problems but it really felt okay. I don't know if I just put meanings to everything that I see right now but... u know... it seems I always get to see roses. And why does pink roses look so appealing to me now. Yes, my favorite color is pink... but not in roses. I only like two colors in roses. Haay! Is there something about the roses?

Btw, I think I'm not a shopaholic anymore. I can pass the cosmetics section w/out something on my hand. Well, I bought something for myself. A black spaghetti blouse and a beige skirt. But that's for the forthcoming assembly for the other company i'm working for. Haha! Dad, good news or bad? Ooops! Dad what did you buy for me in Baguio? You're touring Philippines again ha! You can do it. You're jinx is far from you. Haha!!!

Hmmm... I missed my family again. And I missed my baby, Ryan. There was a little boy at the church about the age of 3 or 4. I remembered the time I always bring Ryan to church. How he fell to sleep during the mass. Ryan was very obedient and quiet at the mass during that age. I carried him when it's time to stand. I sang him gospel songs till he learned to sang it too. Haaay! My baby boy grew up so fast. I'm sure he's so excited to see me. My sister said he's tall and as usual handsome as ever. Part of my itinerary in my forthcoming Christmas vacation will be taking Ryan to the mall. Yay! I'm soooo excited. Family, Ryan, Friends. Cooking, pajama party, Friends' baby. I wish it's December now!

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

*I want more...*

When I was a child, I dreamed to become.... first, as a dentist then a civil or mechanical engineer. Then, it changed to lawyer. As usual, Dad's influences. I was so proud of myself everytime we had visitors then. Because everytime Dad will introduce me, it's always with pride. "Here is my daughter. She's an honor student. She likes to be blah and blah."

As I grew up, as far as I can remember, I also dreamed of becoming a scientist. I think specially during highschool. Biology, Chemistry, Physics and such. Towards the end of highschool, well, a lot of things to be considered. Hmmm... Power suits became appealing. I want to be in the corporate world.

I am already here. I haven't achieve it yet but it's within my grasps. But how come sometimes it feels like I want other things. I want to change career. Sometimes, it also feels like I stopped achieving. Tsk, tsk, tsk. I need to reevaluate myself... again... sigh.

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

*I'll do it in Taglish this time...*

I am really sorry about me blabbing how pissed off I am yesterday. You see, I am really trying to avoid it. Those who really knew me... mabait naman ako. Actually, my friends were the ones pushing me to get angry. Magtaray na raw ako. They tend to be abusive na kasi.

I always fight fairly, legally. But you know, I really have to draw the line. I'm not complacent. I observed them. This time, they should know who to respect to. I'm not an ordinary employee here. They can't bypass me. I demand for what is rightfully due for me.

They can talked behind my back, I don't care. In the end, I'm the one who will emerge as the winner.

I hate to do this but I really need a release. There's other things that are more sensible to focus my attention to. Haay! It's done! Forget it, Mai!

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Monday, August 01, 2005

*now i'm mad...*

I'm mad about this particular employee of ours... damn! i hate arrogant people!

I am always fair. C'mon, I'm the Manager and i'm not the one who should adjust. My blood really boils. I hate it! I hate it!

Shit!(excuse for the words) They choose! My car or i will not go to work! Damn! I hate to demand!

Sorry peepz... I can't shout, I have to release it. Damn!

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